I really hate how I feel really guilty about myself. I feel like I ruined someone's life already although going there sort of. I don't know, I wanna isolate myself from trouble but here I am, stroke for the third time. I might absorb all the burden if someone from this dorm fail because of my annoying noise. Yes, I admit it. I can't control my humor which can cause real commotion together with some dorm people. I was easily amused by sort of things which I cannot really explain and then laugh until my stomach aches like I just did an exercise to have ABS, perhaps sit-ups.
Ugh, I only know one solution so that I would not disturb someone's company. I will just leave for the betterment of everyone. You might consider this as a dramatic ending of my stay but so far, I don't know any possible reason. I don't really want to piss someone again.
I want to change my personality. From a really humorous one to a more serious teenager. I will do this for the benefit of all the interactions I have. So that in the future, I will just be a neutral person, and not someone's headache. I already expected this to happen though, but I never listened to that instinct. I hope I did, since this is not my own home. This is just a lodging place near school. Okay, I hope I can be as quite as a decent lady. I hope I can. Goodnight.
