Just a thought...

No one really understands what the real problem is. Everyone already assumes for conclusion, without even consulting those involved. Why is everyone becoming so narrow-minded?

Everyone blames anyone, just for the sake of pointing out someone to carry the misery - just an assumption of who's who. Please, it is ruthless. 

I hate how the world suddenly shifted. I know life is complicated and that it is fun, but why does it have to be dull all of a sudden for almosy a year?

Is this all a test from the Almighty Father? Am I already using His name in vain? I'm just seeking for right decisions and right answers. I badly need answers. I need to know why and how. 

The dilemma of why and how is hard. 

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Sometimes I wish for death

Okay, it's always been part of learning, part of growing up, part of etc etc etc...

I'm sick of this life!!! I feel so humiliated by myself greatly. Definitely people already sees me as that stupid girl who doesn't know anything. Well, I accept this as a consequence. Though, I don't know how can I accept my family's torn faces if I fail at this.

I'm basically taking up a dayum pre-law course (Alumni from it are expected to take up law as a profession) and now on my second year in the university. My first choice was engineering, but failing multiple times during entrance exams, I gave up. 

The only degree program or course on my mind, when I was in the peak of choosing where to go, was engineering. Nothing else comes to my mind.