Fussed.

I have an entry in queue before this, but I am still not sure if I will be able to publish it. I just wanted to express these stuffs bothering my right now. Especially with the society and environment am in apparently. I want to speak out. Seriously. I might not sleep if I won't!!!

I think I am being so outrageous of the situation. I know it's definitely wrong to judge other people or ruin someone. Maybe yes, that I did judge no one. As far as I know, really. However, something contradicts with this perception. Maybe yes, I did already just judged somebody else out of disliking them. I don't really know the reality of this. I hate putting someone in this state with Idk reason why I dislike him or her. Right now, I think of bad impressions. I can't say which of those I hated, maybe all? Oh no, I shouldn't be.

I hate MAYBEs. It's so lame. Why do I kept repeating that word. I tend to always use it, especially with excuses. I didn't mean to though, but it's convenient.

Back to my rant, I don't know why am I being like this. Sometimes I like something or someone, sometimes not. Am I being so bipolar? I'm scared of this!!! Do I really need a psychiatrist or counseling? I guess no, since I can now contextualize why am being like this, right?

Hayst. This is stressful than my paperworks! I need to find solutions put of this mess within me. I'm not having identity crisis right now, more of self-assessment. I will really find these behinds.
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Goodnight x

Paulit-ulit nalang

Lagi naman eh. Lagi nalang scold, wala na bang bago? Oo nga papagalitan siya, iga-ground. Pero parang joke lang na grounded siya. Anebeyen! Kalokohan naman ang homily nila every time na may malamang kabalastugan na ginagawa ng anak nila. Wala naman atang impact dun sa bata. Panay sisi pa sa iba minsan. Sasabihin na itago si ganyan, si ganito pero on the coming days okay na, pwede na ulit siyang gumamit (?). Well, di naman na siya pinapansin, sige lang pagsasabihan. Wala namang action na tumigil to the point na sigawan ulit.  Tapos after isang kalokohan, homily buong gabi or umaga o buong magdamag. Nakakarindi rin minsan 'yon, ano? Paulit-ulit na lang sinasabi nila eh, buti 'di sila nagsasawa. Kasi naman, panay sisi din sa bata (may kasalanan naman talaga siya) pero sila, 'di nila iniisip ang realidad ng buhay. 'Yung tipong dahil sa feeling nila na masasayahan 'yung anak nila, came to napapasama pa siya lalo --- homily ulit. Sorry, homily talaga tawag ko sa sermon, synonymous naman sila kahit papano eh.

Pagagalitan, konting lambing, bibigay. Ganyan, parang nagiging superior tuloy yung anak nila. Lahat ng gusto nasusunod, spoiled? Walanjoy na buhay 'to. May pag-asa pa sana eh, ginagawa lang nilang parang wala na. Dapat siguro mag-reflect muna sila kung anong problema at posibleng solusyon bago mahuli ang lahat. Wala kasi talagang nagagawa ang SERMON. Kalokohan lang talaga 'yon.