Welcome to the black parade

What happened? After a long hiatus, they have released a few MVs last year, aye? Gerard Way was red-haired. Idk, but after I have seen their latest MVs, here comes hiatus, again. I have not heard a bit of them after those, expect from their MVs and songs on charts.

I first heard them during my fifth grade, like it was 2006 or 07. I can't really remember and I don't wanna count the years back. Welcome to the Black Parade; it started the 'EMO' trend in school, and seriously I was one of those who were obsessed on drawing bold black lines surrounding my eyes, black accessories, black outfits. BLACK or DARK.

I did not own a disc player to listen to music/albums. Despite of my parents having one, which was used for the car. Our past car only plays tapes that's why.

Since mp3 players were also one of the most prestigious techies that time, I asked for it on my birthday. Seriously, I started being geeky that time. I love to explore the world of internet and computers. I knew how to do htmls, edit css, etc. I have been downloading mp3s illegally and put everything on my player. I have known a lot of bands, too, and become more interested in the genre. MCR was one of my favorites.

My favorite songs from My Chemical Romance;
Cemetery Drive, The Ghost Of You, Teenagers, It's Not A Fashion Statement, It's A Death Wish, Famous Last Words, I Don't Love You, and of course, Welcome to the Black Parade.

I can say that these songs helped me with puberty and my early teenage years. Basically, MCR did. They were inspiration. They seem to make songs with practical meanings. Welcome to the Black Parade made me cry. Teenagers. Just wow!

I am thankful that in my existence, I have known such band. Just when I heard the news that they officially announced their band separation, I felt down. Another legendary band was disbanded. I was nearly crying, the fact that I did with their MVs. Though, I am just believing that it might be the best for them, and everyone wants the best for them.

So, I guess this is farewell for My Chemical Romance. But never with their shared music and their name. I would never forget the great music they have shared to everyone.


xxx

Crisis

It is really hard for me to attach myself onto something or to someone for so long. I'd probably have trust issues. I'd also probably have constant change of interests. Aye?

For sure, I don't fully understand myself yet.

[PHOTOS]
My highest scores so far (screenshot from yesterday)

K-Pop Convention 4

It has been long hiatus for this blog. I was not really busy, focusing in school, but it really took a lot of my time. I had a lot of time wasted in school, though. Yeah, until now might still be our break for Christmas and New Year, but the worst one ever. I believe we only have less than two weeks since our last day 'til January 3rd. Sick, right? Well, perhaps I had the best Christmas celebration with my family, though I worry much about my paper works to be done before the start of classes. Hayst.

Yesterday, I went to K-Pop Con 4 without any plans in stock. It was just an urgent hangout with my old friends. I really believe that sometimes planning would not bring what is desired to happen. Actually, I just left home without even worrying of what to buy and the money in my wallet. So it happens that I still have a little money to eat and buy some cheap stuff and for transportation. 

SHAMELESS

I have been harsh to myself lately. Supposedly, I am trying to be a better student, but turned out to be worst. Just yesterday, I was destined to recite the PGC's preamble. So I did, but it should had been presented with something else, like a talent or whatsoever. I was actually planning to sing or rather rap it, however twisted everything. I stood on that flat form, consumed a lot of time, thinking of what possible talent I can manage with my recitation. Seriously, I don't want to continue anymore, it was terrible; I was in midst of nervous breakdown. My professor got disappointed by the time I even mentioned failing that certain activity, but yeah, I finished just plainly reciting the preamble alone.

My yesterday was a bad day. I was being rude to my professors, especially with my English one. I don't want it that way, treating her like she is not even inside the room. I was starting and joining commotions with my classmates, which disrupts her talking. I feel really ashamed, and I should be. I pity her, but pity myself more. I just feel so terrible about yesterday.

Now thinking these, lessons me with how badly I did for the past few days. I meant it, I know. I really intend to be mean and lazy with all the stuff and people whom I feel like acting that way. I always tell other people differently the way I respect myself and others. It is really bothering me right now. I feel like isolating myself from them, to at least renew mine. I don't wanna say more things, just act to my responsibilities and oblige myself to accept whatever God gives me.


Goodnight x